Dear, whoever it is,
Before we start anything I just want you to know that I want everything or nothing.
Do not even bother going out with me if you do not want to give everything.
Do not promise me eternal love when you turn on every girl you meet.
Do not promise me that you will be here in good times or bad, if you can not.
And above all, do not say that you love me, if you do not mean it.
I’m a girl who has been through so much shit in her life. I know what it feels like to be in a relationship with a man who treats everyone better than me.
I got used to meeting assholes pretending that they loved me just to get into my panties. I know what it feels like to love someone so much that it hurts, while everything you get from him is indifference.
That’s why I’m asking you not to fool me.
Love me or leave me, but do not treat me like shit.
Now that I’ve gone through so many things, I finally know what I want. I want so deep love that the ocean would be jealous of it.
I want the love that feels like home. I want a man who loves me deeply and insanely without restrictions. I just want everything or nothing.
I know that I’m a mess and if you think it’s too much for you, you can go whenever you want.
All I want is that you sincerely share bits with me.
If you treat me well, I will do the same for you, but if I see you becoming poisonous, or if you try to change me, I swear I’ll drop you. I was too nice too long to people who did not deserve my kindness. And I have enough now.
I do not want history to repeat itself. I do not want to be a broken-hearted girl anymore. I want to be happy when I am in love.
You know, love does not have to be complicated if we do not do it that way. All you have to do is to love with all your heart. As simple as that.
This time, I want everything to be different.
No pain. No tears. No mistakes. No lies. I want to finally experience that kind of love people write books about. I just want you to know that I will do my best to achieve that. So, if you love me, do it too.
I promise that I will always be there for you in your moments of grief, but also in moments of your greatest bliss. I want the kind of love that makes me shudder every time I see you, even though we live together and spend so much time together.
I want you to lose your breath every time I show up, just because you feel something for me, not because I want it. I want love and happiness that defy all the ugly things in life.
I know there will always be some bumps along the way, but we’ll fix that together. If you just trust me and take care of me as well as I can for you, we can conquer the world together. I just need your decision.
I want you to accept me with all my imperfections, because they make me perfect in my way. I want you to know that some things are not impossible when you make an effort. If you want to go on this life journey with me, I will reserve you a place in my future.
In the end, I’ll remind you once again that I’m a girl who wants everything or nothing. So, baby, I implore you not to fall in love with me if you do not stay!